I want my husband to realize i love him more than I've ever loved anyone, that I dont have another soulmate, and that he is my world. Am I justified to protect my heart and my head. So are we really staying for the children or for our own issues of insecurity? I couldn't believe this was my life. He started a new job about 5 months ago in a different field than he is accustomed, and while it is a great opportunity for him, it comes with a lot of stress. To me, a soul mate is the perfect person for me and for him to hear you consider using that word for someone else would hurt a lot. Is it possible to get past this.
Love is not something that you can take from me. Not to be an alarmist here or anything but if this happened 2 years ago and he still is acting like there is a wall between you and you have a teenage son who will soon be leaving the nest? Here are a few things that you may find comfort and healing in though if you are sincere about finding help for your heartache. I would also be a little upset that he installed a key logger, which tracks both things you did send and things you didn't. I remained at home and continued to waste away for the next 5 years applying to jobs going to grad school and still nothing. That is the absolutely wrong approach.
Reading has taught you how the healing process can begin and I do believe with a strong sense of sisterhood that you are on the way. Love and passion, oh what a cruel combination. Still love him, but it won't ever be the same, and I will never trust him fully again. It might have saved my marriage. This distrust of my judgement goes into her core and drives any desire for interesting sexual contact to a boring predictable and infrequent occurrence. Urges that could have and should have been fulfilled by her. Of course I think of all the things I could have possibly done wrong and shes done right! And I needed to choose whether I would live as a victim or live in victory.
Your husband really seems to be holding on to this, he may be dealing with other issues related to or triggered by this. When school started my mom was transferred and he was sent to live in another state with his mother. Searching for answers and Gods words. I just need a little nudge in the right direction. I was so broken then, i cried my eyes out, but now, am happily married to the most lovable man in the whole world. I see him on his cell phone and it just triggers me inside.
This is a question that too many people are forced to ask around the world each and every day. Thank you for your powerful message. How will God bring glory out of this mess? Take time for things that interest you. I don't know why but I feel like you should write your husband a letter explaining things as you have here. I felt i was her Knight in shining Armour I provided a home ,i was was working and put everything into Family~+ home the future. That came out later, along with revelations that he's been having emotional affairs online for years, and that he bought condoms in case he 'had sex accidently' with some woman he met while out running during his last 'business' trip.
He took the words from you and placed them in my heart. Ask God to lead you to the woman that will appreciate you and love you for you. You taught me to believe in who I am and you pushed me to be the best possible version of myself. I even confronted him and his mother during the relationship that i heard the mother to his kids on the phone and I dont think shes a junkie at all because junkies would not have that much concern for their children. I feel as though I have aged 10 years over this 2 year period. This type of battle is so real for so many! A blogger wrote Phoenix Rising website, 2013 that she had come to realize, years later but still in pain, that the experience had made her aware of things within herself which she had lost due to her relationship with a narcissist.
It was long ago, so who knows what happened. He has brought so much more growth and love and joy into my life than anyone else. First, she was an abused pre-teen in the past, then married me and she could have done better. I would never use anyone. Word of advice from anyone, I love my husband I really do. He said he wanted more than work and 'parenting', and that he was leaving me to pursue those things.
I'm incredibly hurt by his many betrayals there is so much more than I have written here , and I resent both him and her. It is best for you and there are better people out there for you. . Marriages, cultures, habits, and beliefs play important roles in what would be the direct path to healing for you. Yoga is a tool of meditation.
You could even try that before you go if you want, but I'm betting it's too late for that if your husband is really how you describe. Yet, the Lord allowed all of these things to take place in our lives even though we were intentional about pursing Christ day in and day out. He promised me that he would never do anything to hurt me again and he even admitted to being wrong and foolish, begging for my forgiveness on his knees. Friends told her not to bother any more. I never meant to hurt you and I feel so badly that I did. It is a tool for forgiveness and strength.
I asked him for how long he had been unhappy. Forgot about looking back at potential problems your marriage might have had no marriage is perfect , rather, focus ahead on what you want your marriage to be, how much better you can make it, and make it that. Let me express the hope and loyalty that is instilled inside of a girl who built up wall after wall only to feel as though they were peacefully torn down by a man who pulled her deeply into his love. She had always been relatively happy in her marriage but she never really thought that her actions were going to come back to haunt her. Everything was great for the first month, but all the emotions and pain that I put him through have resurfaced. This is so painful that I'm not sure that I could ever go through this again. There were times the man I married was with both me and her intimately within hours of each other he kept a log of most of their sexual exploits, which he later sent to me.