We are a short-attention-span culture, full of very needy people, often looking to others to fill them up - preferably without any time or effort or there part. Or do they also take off when they are depressed? As women, we feel compelled to make life work. When I'm in a hypomanic or manic state I tend to be more social and outgoing. It was like looking through a window at people fighting with each other. I try to break into the mental drift when I first sense myself wandering away, but often it takes over so completely that I even lose that desire to stop it. Anything more than that and we think you're getting all psycho on us, even if it started out as our fault.
Intellect does sometimes trump chemicals when it comes to matters of the heart--and dopamine. Her fellow employees can barely remember her name. I feel horrifically guilty when I get overwhelmed by my children, but this has made me a better mother—the kind of mother who steps away before it drowns her and hugs hard because we both need it. So no one ever had to do that. She listens and is patient and giving. I'm learning that it is indeed about balance.
I experience de-realization + de-personalization fairly often. I followed up on dissociation at your blog. Then go out and find someone who will treat you the way you deserve to be treated. But then the crash hits me like a freight train and I get scared to even get in a car and drive myself somewhere. The only way to do that and not make me paranoid is by email, and this only until the address below is corrupted by someone who claims to be a friend of mine relieved of her wallet and stranded in London, in need of 2K to tide her over until the mess is straightened out. For that I am thankful.
Or controlled by me, my decisions, my energy, etc. Kids are stressful and a lot of work. You just need to tell yourself that it is his loss, that he is missing out on a great woman. Prior to this time, I was heavily medicated and walked around like a zombie. My wife of 6 years. I don't show it that well since I might not respond right away.
Or just one of life's mysteries. Sometimes, I want to disappear. While Internet addiction and depression are separate diagnoses, they often overlap. I wish he lived far away now! And the money was on me not staying in my current relationship. I guess I am still somewhat angry and bitter about this - I'll try to focus on what you guys posted here. After several mos, he started neglecting me once again, and leaving for weekends to dirt bike ride frequently.
Could also be that he wasn't getting love, respect, or feeling of being needed from you. But I'd just prefer to be left alone. He scams money from us. Six months ago he stopped the smoking…but still craved them. They disappear because the grass is always greener on the other side: they worry about what they're missing. I'm not depressed, but I'm doing that right now. I'm not sure why I retreat, but I know it does offer a sense of relief, like Carmen and Cats have said.
I guess like I said - depends on each person's individual needs and levels of emotional comfort. But these diseases have become part of me. Gone and just done it. Anonymous wrote:Would it be a mistake for me to share this link with my husband? I am just so sad. I really think he has no idea how f'ed up this whole thing is and it might help for him to know that people other than me think it's wrong. Its hard because its right around the holidays. Are you guys aware of the things your mates do when they disappear.
The meds help tremendously in the beginning however he moodiness begin to digress so he has had to have his dosage increased several times and the increases does not seem to be working. Thus, many we thought would last forever turn out to be transient----and friends, even very close ones, slip in and out of our lives for a variety of reasons. Your head is in the clouds. It's important to note: You don't have to be a raging alcoholic to be abusing alcohol. And the thing about this need? My bouts of depression usually aren't curable by any outside means, either.
My husband was apparently undaunted by such a challenge. The purpose of this community is to help families and friends develop greater patience and understanding, as well as maintain a positive, caring relationships with those diagnosed as Bipolar. I would really appreciate having someone come to me and ask me the above questions if I were feeling down and saying that I might not be around for a little while. Psych Central has twice chosen the site as a Top Ten depression blog, and Blogs. I then decided to write a book of my own to share the valuable knowledge I was acquiring. The ones who stay on their meds and stick with the program are still constant worry to their families.